Weeping…

by Susan

I just watched My Sister’s Keeper and I wept. Seriously wept.

I never cry anymore. (Not because I’m an emotional giant… rather the opposite. I actually take meds that tend to impair my tear ducts.)

But this movie was absolutely tear-your-heart-to-strips sad.

AnissaIt brought out all sorts of fears and emotions in me.

It made me think of all the amazing families I’ve met online through 5 Minutes for Special Needs and the rest of the blogosphere. I can’t grasp the profound suffering they’ve gone through.

As I watched I couldn’t stop thinking of Anissa and her fight for her daughter’s survival and how she’s now having to fight a totally different battle.

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Anissa with her daughter Peyton.

I wept because my life is too good. And I think of it all the time… that everything in my life is so close to perfect and I just want to grab hold and not let go. And I’m so scared of letting each moment end that I can’t fully enjoy what I have.

I sat alone, by the light of my Christmas tree, let the credits roll and bawled. The tears felt so good. They had needed to fall for a very long time.

Written by Susan, co-founder of 5 Minutes for Mom



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Susan Carraretto and her identical twin, Janice Croze, created 5 Minutes for Mom in 2006. Susan loves all social media, but her top addiction these days is Pinterest. She recently published a children's book titled "The Pest Detectives" which you can download now in digital format for free.

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1 Cheri Wiles December 28, 2009 at 6:46 am

Beautifully said. Brought tears to my eyes …

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2 Grace December 28, 2009 at 7:31 am

Everybody says they’ve cried watching that movie. My Sister’s Keeper was on our flight to Japan last October but I refused to see it – didn’t want to flood the plane!!

You are right, sometimes, I think of my life, how everything seems to be perfect in my own standards – I have a healthy husband and daughter and we’re happy. There are nights when I’m scared anything wrong would happen and more scared to think how I’ll cope…

What a beautiful post.

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3 Territory Mom December 28, 2009 at 11:13 am

God has given all of us a special journey. Embrace it all good or bad.

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4 Muthering Heights December 28, 2009 at 11:33 am

Anissa is so strong…this was a sweet tribute to her fighting spirit!! :)

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5 optical digital cameras December 28, 2009 at 1:55 pm

Makes you realize how fortunate we all are, and how important the time we have with are family is.

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6 Marie December 28, 2009 at 5:23 pm

We are all very blessed. Thanks for the reminder to continue prayers for Anissa. What an amazing fighter!

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7 Sally December 29, 2009 at 12:06 am

I only know Anissa through blogs like yours, but I’m praying for her all the same. I’m touched by her story. Thanks for sharing it.

Sometimes, what we really need is a good cry. It how we appreciate the smiles.

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8 Geri C December 29, 2009 at 1:06 am

Haven’t seen the movie yet because I know I will also weep when I watch it. But weeping is good. It cleanses the heart and mind and helps us see our lives through clean windows. Embrace the good life you are living and enjoy it and pray for incredibly strong women like Anissa to have the chance to live their “perfect life” dream, whatever that dream may be.

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9 Tina December 29, 2009 at 9:01 am

What a lovely post. I really want to see that movie now.

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10 Peggy Gorman December 29, 2009 at 9:23 am

Life is very fragile
Its so important we all need to embrace every moment,hug ,show love everyday.

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11 StephanieS December 29, 2009 at 5:25 pm

I’m not sure if I want to see that movie or not. It’s a strange thing…ever since I became a mother, I tend to choose funny/positive movies over the sad ones. Sometimes I just feel like there’s already enough “heartbreak” in real life that I’d rather skip the movies that portray it…{does that make sense?}

I’ve heard great things about that movie though…

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12 Cheryl Martinson December 29, 2009 at 5:31 pm

Seeing that picture of Peyton with her mommy got the tears pouring out of my eyes. My heart is aching for them. Absolutely emotional. I can’t imagine what that poor family is going through. Boy does it give me a sense of gratitude that I’m whole and healthy. I just pray for the same for this family to find happiness and health that they so much deserve.

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13 Sandy Cooper December 29, 2009 at 11:18 pm

First of all…have you read the BOOK? My oh my. If you cried during the movie, you will be a complete and utter mess at the book. Couldn’t put it down. And just to let you know: the book’s ending is completely different.

Second of all…I have the same issue with my medication. I’m so glad someone else has verbalized this. I have only cried about 10 times since June 2007. This, from the girl who cried during diaper commercials. And probably Coke commercials.

It makes a good cry all the more sweeter. It is so amazingly cleansing, is it not?

Blessings to you,
Sandy

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14 Sandy Cooper December 29, 2009 at 11:42 pm

Oh…and third of all, I had not previously known about Peyton and Anissa. I just read through a few of the blog posts between this comment and my last. Oh. My. Goodness.

Thank you for bringing this precious family to my attention so we can pray.

Blessings again!
Sandy

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15 Joliene D December 31, 2009 at 2:33 am

My friend begged me to read the book, which was brilliant, then I watched the movie (which I thought could’ve been better) but I CRIED AND CRIED. I was hiccupping crying, it was incredibly touching!

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16 Deborah December 31, 2009 at 10:03 am

Love the post, loved the movie and cried ME a river. My daughter Rachel asked, “why are you crying, it is just a movie?”I told her it reminds me to be thankfull for 4 healthy children and I cry because the only one who loves you more than me is Jesus. And just the thought of one of my children in pain causes the tears to flow like a waterfall. God Bless all mothers. “Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy’ PSALMS 126:5 NIV

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