Okay – I have to confess – I have been keeping it a secret. But only because we weren’t totally sure yet and I wanted to be really sure before I made the big announcement.
My regular 2D ultrasound eight weeks ago showed that I was having a girl. When I told Jackson he was devastated! He burst into tears, screaming and bawling for half an hour with his overwhelming disappointment. (He has been begging God for a brother since he was two!)
Susan’s ultrasound, two weeks later, was more inconclusive and the report said it only might be a girl…
Jackson has being going through many of the stages of grief and is firmly stuck in denial. He keeps insisting that they will be boys when they come out.
So – off to the 3D ultrasounds we went to get some rock hard evidence that these growing bellies are holding girls and to help prepare Jackson for when they arrive. (We learned our lesson with Julia. Jackson was in tears after Julia was born because she wasn’t a boy. He had been praying for a baby brother – he was three at the time and insisted that this was his sibling not cousin – and I think he thought God brought the wrong baby! For these babies, we want to help him accept it ahead of time, so that he can enjoy the arrivals of his new sister and new cousin.)
Today was the big day. I don’t think the ultrasound techs will soon forget us twins and our big entourage. (Susan’s scan was first and her husband Rob, as well as Julia, Jackson and I were all in to see the big show. Then it was my turn and Rob left and my husband Phil came in.)
The moment the screen lit up with the 4D pictures of Susan’s baby, Jackson declared, “This is the best movie ever!” Although, he soon grew restless and thankfully the room came equipped with toys for the kids once the novelty had worn off.
It was such a fun experience – but I had been really nervous about this day.
Susan and I are thrilled to have girls. We are so close and love being twins, so we are excited for these cousins to both be girls and get the chance to hopefully experience a bit of the “twin” life we have had.
But, I know that Jackson is crushed. At the very least, he was really hoping that Susan would have a boy. To get two girls out of this deal must seem too cruel to him. (Although he adores his cousin Julia – he really wants the brother experience.) So as his mother, I want to give him the brother he so desperately wants.
And after the first meltdown when I told him we were having a girl, I was picturing quite a scene in the ultrasound office when he found out that the babies really were girls.
But he did ok! He was a bit disappointed and said they still might come out boys, but he was thrilled with seeing his new babies.
Now the only problem is that he is begging me to have another baby after this one so he can have another chance at getting a brother.
Here is a picture of Susan’s baby. (My baby was covering her face with her arms and so we couldn’t see her face. But the ultrasound office will let us come back and try again. So hopefully in a couple weeks I will have a picture of my little girl’s face to show you.)
I think she looks just like Susan (and a lot like Julia too.)
ps. This is Susan here now… I just had to add something funny that Jackson said during the ultrasounds… I said to him, “Do you think the baby gets bored in there? She hasn’t got any toys.”
And he replied very seriously, “No, they play with the blood supply.”