I am on the trip of a lifetime…
and I don’t have my camera!
Somewhere in the mad dash when we were catching our connection in Minniapolis, I lost track of my camera bag. I still can’t figure out how it happened. I think the last time I had it it was on my back as I carried Olivia, a diaper bag, Jackson’s backpack, and my purse off the plane.
Then, when I went to change Olivia’s diaper, I loaded up her stroller with stuff, left it with Susan and I never saw my camera bag again. Perhaps I Ieft it sitting next to the stroller and my husband didn’t see it when he grabbed the stroller to take everything on board. I can’t remember what was going on at that second except that I was chasing after Olivia who had escaped again from my grasp and was running down the jetway.
All I know is that when we got on the plane, we had all the kids and we thought we had all the bags. When we went to deplane in Orlando, I asked my hubby where my camera bag was and he had no idea. He thought I had had it.
Yes — panic. I thought I was going to throw up as I frantically searched my memory for when I had last touched my camera bag. When had I had it last? When and why did I put it down? How could I not have checked when we got on the plane. And HOW was I going to endure the agony of losing $3000 worth of camera gear AND be without my camera for the trip I had so looked forward to capturing on camera!
If you know me, you know that I am all about reliving moments through the expression on my kids faces. Capturing them experiencing life is my passion — and what I want to share with you!
Even if I had time to run out and buy a new DSLR before we set sail on our Disney Cruise the next day, I can’t afford it. And besides, I had hopes that someone had found and turned it in and I would be reunited with my beloved camera, (and the photos I had taken of my kids at camp that I hadn’t yet downloaded.)
But it seems that whoever picked up my bag didn’t have good intentions. Even though it was marked and it had my business cards inside (I even had my travel insurance in it!) no one has called. I have made all the reports I can make. Nothing. It is gone…
To know that the person who has it has my video camera and a camera card full of my kids, and even has my journal with posts, notes and to do lists in it and yet they still didn’t feel led to return it to me is so hurtful. I can’t even imagine how a person could do that! That is like looking into someone’s window, watching them play with their kids and then smashing in and stealing their most beloved treasures.
I am trying so hard to let it go and not let it ruin my trip. But honestly it is so hard. Every moment I want my familiar DSLR in my hands, I want to snap the moment and hold on to it forever.
But, as painful as the loss is, I am grateful that it was only my camera. I still have my kids. They are safe. I can hold them and kiss them — and you know I am not letting them out of my site!
I am glad we are on this ship right now. I feel safe on board here with them — no crowded airports for awhile. I can catch my breath and try to regroup. And when I go back to the airport, I am going to be keeping my hands on my kids and my bags at all moments!
Written by 5 Minutes for Mom Co-Founder, Janice Croze