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It has been twenty hours since the ordeal began and I am still feeling the mix of adrenalin and relief flushing through my blood.
For two terrifying hours last night, my son writhed in pain, screaming for me to help him. And all I could do was hold him and pray that nothing serious was wrong. I helplessly carried him from the car to the clinic and then back to the car to go to Children’s Hospital. He continued with his ear piercing screams as I phoned my husband and then my mom on my cell phone to let them know where I was going.
But then, as I talked to my mom while driving down the freeway, it was suddenly quiet. I looked back and saw my son slumped over. “Jackson – Jackson!” I frantically screamed at him. He opened his eyes slightly, mumbled something, and then shut his eyes. “Jackson – wake up honey!” I kept screaming, but he wouldn’t wake up.
“Mom – I think Jackson is unconscious – I have to go.” I hung up and phoned the ambulance. In tears now, I frantically explained, “Please help me – I am on the highway taking my son to Children’s Hospital for severe abdominal pain, but I think he has passed out in his car seat.”
“Okay ma’am, we need you to pull off at the next gas station. We will send an ambulance to you.” As I pulled in I saw an ambulance across the street. “Wait,” I told them, “There is an ambulance across the street at the other gas station.”
“Okay – head over to them and we will radio them and let them know you are coming.”
I reached the ambulance just as their radios alerted the paramedics. Jumping out, I flew to the over the side of the van and opened the door to get to Jackson. He was alert now and crying that he didn’t want to go in an ambulance. I was just thrilled to hear him crying.
And then the strangest part of the night began. Jackson got out of the van – without yelping in pain. He stood up and talked to the paramedic. You have to understand – he hadn’t been able to stand at all for the last two hours. He hadn’t been able to move without screaming. I hadn’t even been able to get him to lie down on the table at the clinic because he had been in so much pain.
But now he was fine. He was just scared about the ambulance.
“I am so sorry,” I gushed to the paramedics, “I don’t understand. He seems fine now…” I tried to explain to them what had been happening with him.
“Don’t worry, ma’am, this is our job,” they reassured me, “Lets just bring him into the hospital to get him checked.”
I was rattled. One of the paramedics parked my van and Jackson and I got in the ambulance. Jackson was crying and scared, but we talked to him and calmed him down. His vitals were fine. He chattered away to the paramedic about Star Wars. I laughed and began to breathe. Total relief.
By the time we got to the hospital, it was clear that my little boy was completely healthy. Now my biggest concerns were embarrassment over bringing in a healthy child – in an ambulance no less – and not getting contaminated with the stomach flu virus that has been raging around our city.
I apologized again to one of the paramedics for bothering them. Again he assured me that it was not a problem. I am always amazed at how kind paramedics are. Whenever I have encountered them – usually in very terrifying moments of my life – they have been so wonderful. I have never met a grumpy or unkind paramedic.
After we finally got to see the doctor, he agreed that Jackson was okay. Shrugging, he said, “It could have just been a bowel spasm or something. We tested his urine and since he seems fine now, we won’t bother with any blood tests or anything.”
I was overjoyed. I couldn’t stop kissing Jackson – actually I don’t think I had stopped kissing and hugging him all night.
“Oh Jackson – you gave me such a scare tonight.” I hugged him even tighter. “I couldn’t live if something happened to you.”
“Yes, you could,” he calmly replied in his wise way, “You wouldn’t want to, but you would.”
Driving home, I was in shock. I felt dizzy with relief. I couldn’t believe that Jackson was totally fine and asking for food! I had been sure he had had appendicitis, food poisoning or worse. Jackson has never had a stomach ache like that before, let alone been in so much pain. I had had no idea what was wrong or what to do. And then when I thought he had gone unconscious! I had gone from terror to total relief in a matter of hours. And now, I was on my way home, with a healthy, happy child.
I couldn’t believe it. Total euphoria.
Now, he is bouncing around the house – his usual crazy self. And as he leaves to go to the YMCA for a quick swim with his dad, I feel overwhelmed to let him out of my sight. He turns and waves to me. He looks so grown up and yet so fragile. I can’t bear how much I love him. It hurts. I breathe in gratitude to have him healthy and plead with God to keep him safe. I need my sweet boy.
Jessica says
Oh my gosh! It must have been a scary situation for you!
I am glad that everything is Ok now though! 🙂
christieo says
My Gosh Janice, I’m so glad everything is okay! I just read this (days later, sorry!). Thank God! I can’t imagine the panic that must have been for you! I’m so glad he’s ok now. Oh and yes, I just had that lovely stomach thingy, no picnic!
Erna says
I am so glad Jackson is doing well. Having been on at least 3 or 4 ambulances with Rachel so far I can thoroughly echo your sentiment about paramedics. Rachel specifically likes one named Tyler and the partner he had. Situations like these are really hard on parents . . . I’m so glad he is fine and that the paramedics were so wonderful.
Stacey says
Oh my goodness! (((hugs))) My heart bursts for you and I can’t imagine how you felt. I agree, paramedics are the nicest people in the worst moments. I am SO glad that Jackson was ok, and … I don’t know. I’m just so pleased everything worked out. You have a very wise son, ya know.
Diana says
I’m so glad he’s OK!
My mom used to get so frustrated with us, by the time we were older she’d say “ARE YOU SURE IT’S BAD?” because she swore everytime she’d take us into the hospital for something we’d miraculously heal and then she’d look like the crazy hypochondriac mom. LOL.
rubia says
Kidney stone passing possibly? That’s enough pain to make an adult pass out!
Kara says
Oh my gosh! How scary! I’m so glad he is ok.
boomama says
So glad everything is okay – I know you were scared out of your mind. Lots of hugs to you and J. –
Sarah says
Oh Janice, I’d not been over for a couple of days. You poor thing, what a trauma.
I remember L, my 2 year old, suddenly turning blue and panting and then listless as if she couldn’t get her breath she had a high temperature. I immediately rang church and the receptionist prayed. She immediately improved. I still took her to the doctors (oh me of little faith) and they were a little concerned about her temperature, but because she had improved they just sent us home with paracetamol, it was so scary though.
Hugs to you, it sounds like you did all the right things. Hug your little one too!
Eliza says
No mom likes her kid in pain, hopefully it never happens. I know this would’ve been a scary moment. Glad to hear he was just fine. Still makes ya wonder what was wrong with him at first though.
Sue says
Oh, how scary that must have been for you. I can’t even imagine the terror you must have felt. It’s a mother’s worst nightmare. I’m so glad that it turned out ok. Better to always err on the side of caution. I hope your heart has stopped pounding. 🙂
ChupieandJsmama says
Oh My Janice! How Frightening! I’ve been there, a few times, and I know how it feels. Thank goodness he is fine. It’s always better to be safer than sorry. When in doubt, always call the ambulance. When my son had his first allergic reaction, I didn’t call the paramedics, because I wasn’t sure the problem was that serious and I didn’t want to bother them. It could have been deadly. I will never make that mistake again. I’m glad he’s feeling better and I hope you’ve recovered as well. God Bless you guys!
Fun Playdates says
My eyes misted up as I read your story and I’m thrilled to know that he is ok!
I’m also glad that you had him checked out and he received a clean bill of health. I have heard of so many stories where parents ignored the warning signs of serious problems with their kids… chalking off the complaints or cries to the kids just being fussy. You just never know…
Once again, I’m relieved to hear that your story had a happy ending!
Jenn says
OH WOW – I could have never of guessed – what an amazing thing – WOW – I am just soo thankful your little man is just fine and that God in all his glory was looking out for that percious little boy. I can’t imagine your terror – (((MANY HUGS)))) I am so glad he’s ok!
Paula says
Whew, you gave me a scare too. Glad Jackson is okay. I know you were very worried and upset. Thank God he is alright! (((hugs)))
Fiddledeedee (It Coulda' Been Worse) says
Janice,
When you wrote, “Yes, you could,” he calmly replied in his wise way, “You wouldn’t want to, but you would.” Tears started shooting out of my eyes. What a sweet precious little boy. Praise God everything is alright. Now, I’m going to go sneak into my kids’ rooms while they’re sleeping and make sure they’re breathing. Pinch ‘um if I have to. Just kidding. But, I certainly check for breathing.
jen says
How scary but it sounds like you coped quite well really. I have a friend whose a paramedic he is one of the nicest guys I now. Hes going to be Daniel’s godfather.
Bless your son for the way he spoke to you when you told him you couldnt live without him.
Im glad hes ok again 🙂
Imperfect Christian (CJ) says
Thank God he’s okay! My first thought was also appendicitis. When my two year old’s appendix burst, she went from being in pain to being completely fine…until a few days later when she began feeling the effects once again. It scares me to no end at what “could have” happened. But God had His hand on her and His purpose behind it has been revealed (in part.) I’m glad Jackson is okay!!
Kim says
Praise God! I believe He DOES still produce miracles. I am so glad that Jackson is alright. I know what you mean about loving him so much it hurts. It sure is nice to know other moms feel the same way. Blessings to you & your family!
Amanda Joyce says
I bet there were lots of folks praying for Jackson, and you experienced an answered prayer!
Dana says
words just can’t convey how truly thankful I am that everything is alright.
Mama Lily says
I’m so happy to know there was a happy ending to this story. How absolutely traumatizing! Did they ever figure out what was wrong? Blessings!
Aimee says
I am so glad that you had a happy ending to this story and that he is fine now. What a little cutie too, I love how wise children can be sometimes.
Laura says
Oh how scary for you. I’m so glad everything turned out okay. Laura (orgjunkie)
KWiz says
Oh my God! I was so feeling you as I read your post. And I absolutely agree – it seems paramedics are so incredibly patient and empathetic. My husband and I had to call 911 back in August 2005 after my 14-month old daughter ate a little peanut butter and had a severe reaction. Fortunately, we didn’t have to transport her to the hospital, but the paramedics reassured us and gave us options on what to do after her reaction subsided.
Also, I rode in an ambulance with past summer when my mommy was transported to the hospital in the last weeks of her battle with lung cancer. It was an incredibly stressful time, since the cancer had spread to her brain and she was confused and paranoid and she wouldn’t let any of us treat her anymore. But she chose me to ride in the ambulance with her. The paramedics were kind and compassionate during a time that was so painful for my mommy and her family. I remember as the two gentlemen were wheeling her through the hospital that they tried to keep our spirits calm and lighten the situation a little. I needed that at the time, and I told them how wonderful they were.
Thank you for sharing your experience. It reminded me of the wonderful angels God places in our midst when we need them.
Susanne says
You must have been terrified. I’m glad he is ok and that the paramedics where there. And I gotta love that child’s wise words after it all. He says the most amazing things.
Barbara H. says
What an emotional roller coaster you experienced! I am glad he is ok. I am amazed at the wisdom in his words.
Carey says
Im so glad to hear that jackson is ok, and i pray that he will never have an episode like that again.
It is a nice feeling to know that there are people out there willing to help in situations like this.
misslionheart says
I was so tense as I was reading that! They really can give us a frights these kids!
Kim says
Oh My! I am so glad to hear that he is okay! What a terrifying ordeal that must have been! I probably would have wrecked the car when you thought he was unconscious!
You are not alone in feeling embarrassed, I too had a very very similar situation with Brooke about 6 months ago. We arrived at Red Lobster for a nice lunch after a very long day of shopping. Brooke needed to use the restroom so I took her in there and when she sat down she started screaming so loud that the people all the way at the other end of the restaurant could hear her and it was pretty loud and crowded in there. I rushed her out of the restroom still screaming and met my dh at the door, I will never forget the fear I felt or the look of fear on my dh’s face. In the car on the way to the hospital she couldn’t move an inch without screaming from horrible, horrible pain. Then at the E.R. while we were waiting for the doctor we couldn’t even touch her tummy without her screaming at the top of her lungs. When a nurse finally came into our room she asked me to get a urine sample, this was something I was sure I wouldn’t be able to get but I took the little cup from her and picked up my screaming baby and headed to the restroom, a very acoustic restroom. After about ten minutes of horrible pain and screaming she was finally able to go. Then out of nowhere there was silence…. There was no more screaming and she could walk and run and jump! I was so puzzled. I took her back to the room to wait for a doctor and when he finally arrived he asked me when the last time she went to the restroom was. My reply: “um, actually I don’t remember her going all day” “Brooke, did you use the restroom today?” “Oh my goodness, it is 3pm and the child hasn’t gone all day long!” I felt so ashamed and embarrassed. The doctor examined her and said she was a healthy, happy 6 year old and ended up diagnosing her issue as “greatly distended bladder” in other words… she had to pee so bad she couldn’t and all because her mother didn’t make sure she went to the bathroom all day.
I felt so bad, sad and embarrassed. It was awful.
Anyway, I just wanted you to know that you weren’t alone in feeling embarrassed. It happens to the best of us!
Janean says
WOW! What a night. You probably DO still have an adrenaline rush going.
I can SO totally understand where you’re coming from. I don’t think I’ve had anything that dramatic happen, but my son got croup as a baby and when he couldn’t breathe and was crying and barking like a seal, I just couldn’t take it.
So I put him in the car and drove him to the hospital…and he was TOTALLY FINE when we got there. Turns out, cold air dilates the bronchial passages and helped him breathe better. 😀
Glad everything turned out alright. God bless!
Mary (Mert) says
You poor guys! I bet you WERE scared, I would have been too. the Lord must have answered your prayers :O)
I had something similar happen when my daughter was 2 1/2, she had a terrible stomach flu and couldn’t keep anything down for almost 2 days so we took her to the clinic. While I waiting to have her seen, she suddenly went limp in my arms… eyes open and blank, she was turning green/gray. i freaked and ran to the desk and shouted that she wasn’t responding I needed a doctor now. the lady at the desk ignored me and continued with her phone call. i yelled louder than I have ever yelled in my life that I wanted a doctor stat, NOW!
On the way to the examining room ( I can’t believe they didn’t code her), I looked at my husband as I was praying, a look he has seen before, and he started praying too. We prayed so, so hard, and less than a minute later she sat up in my lap a little peaked, but like nothing happened. Same as you, we told God that we couldn’t live without her, that we needed her, and that we waited so long for her, after 11 years of infertility she couldn’t be taken so soon. The doctor examined her and said he would give her something for nausea so she could keep her food down, but otherwise she was fine.
To this day, we don’t know what happened except that we prayed and the Lord answered. I do believe in miracles, maybe yours was a miracle too. :O)
Deanne says
Janice,
When you stopped by, you could have warned me it would be a tear-jerker! 🙂 Wow! You most certainly did have a terrifying night! I’m glad that Jackson is okay! Isn’t it amazing that feeling of love that runs so deep, it hurts? I knew the exact feeling you were talking about (as I’m sure all moms do)
I just love how calm and quiet Jackson is. “Yes, you would. You wouldn’t want to, buy you would.” That gives ME pangs of him growing up too quick (and he’s not even MY son!)
Praise God that Jackson was alright!
Sarah S. says
Isn’t that so terrifying??? How awful and wonderful that he’s okay.
I took my son to the ER once b/c I KNEW he had appendicitis. An x-ray revealed the most humongous air bubble you have ever seen in your life. It’s funny now!
Chris says
Wow! what a scare! It is in those moments that our whole world just stops. Praise God he is fine!