Have you ever left a conversation or an event and just wished you could do it all over again?
Maybe you would change everything about it or maybe you would just change a look or a word – but you can’t. It is over. And you are left with regret burning your insides as you replay over and over what you wish you had done, said or even been.
So here I am – my mind aching over the memories. It isn’t anything big. I didn’t even do anything “wrong.” But in my heart, I know I failed my Lord.
Nothing went wrong. I didn’t fall into a huge sin or embarrass myself. But at the end of the night I felt damaged and lost. I couldn’t place what was wrong. I crawled into bed still uneasy.
But tonight at Bible Study, the Lord made it clear.
I had walked into a room full of people and didn’t even realize that I had forgotten to pray. I had not brought the Lord with me. I had left Him at home and gone alone. The night was all about me and I had forgotten my purpose.
The reality of sin is that even when we confess deeply and sincerely we must live with the consequences. I will never know the consequences of this night on this side of Heaven. Maybe they were very little. But for that night I lived without consideration of my purpose and ignored the Spirit.
I know I learned a lesson I wish I would never forget again — Do not leave the Lord out, not even for a minute. He is my life and my joy. When I walk without Him I am weak, empty and without purpose. But when I invite the Holy Spirit in, then I am alive in Christ and able to be who I am called to be.
P.S. For more discussion on our purpose in life, check out our sister blog Faith Lifts. This month’s theme is Purpose and you can join in with us as we discuss our purpose with the blogger of the day.
And, if you remember, drop by Faith Lifts on Saturday. This week I will be writing about how I discovered the purpose of my life. I would love to see you there!