Do I Look Beautiful?

All beautiful you are, my darling; there is no flaw in you. (Song of Solomon 4:7 NIV)

Monday: Do I look beautiful? I did my very best at looking great. I’ve washed my hair with my very favorite “I didn’t spend a fortune on my hair, Suave just makes me look like I do” shampoo. I’ve combed and styled my hair with the cutest tiny jeweled barrette. I picked just the right shades of eye shadow, applying three colors just like the directions said. My lashes are curled and plumped. And I’m wearing all-day lipstick. I’m beautiful. Yeah. I’m sure.

Tuesday: Do I look beautiful? I got a quick shower and I washed my hair yesterday with that fabulous shampoo. I can still smell the tangerines. I really didn’t have time to brush it, but I do have that cutest tiny jeweled barrette and all. I’ll just tighten it up a little. I did take all that time to put on my make-up yesterday I’m sure there’s still some left. I think I’m sure. I can still see the all-day lipstick. I’m beautiful. Yeah. I think I am.

Wednesday: Do I look beautiful? I took a quick sponge bath. I think today I’ll pull my hair back in a ponytail. It’s looking a little shiny, but it’ll look great in a ponytail. And of course, there’s the cutest tiny jeweled barrette to accent it just so. Make-up? Well, I am going for more of a sporty look today. It’ll probably be fine. I’m sure. I’m beautiful. Well. I’m cute.

Thursday: Do I look beautiful? I added some Secret Platinum Strength deodorant – Asian Pear. No time for a shower. Let me cinch that ponytail up a little tighter. My cutest tiny jeweled barrette is hanging low and doesn’t look very sparkly any more. At least it’s still tiny. That makes it cute. Maybe I should just add a baseball cap today. Yeah, a baseball cap is definitely what I need to cover the fact I have no make-up. There’s just really not time. And who cares anyway? Isn’t the natural look back in? I think it is. I think. I’m pretty. Maybe. Yeah, there is a good chance I’m pretty.

Friday: Do I look beautiful? I don’t have time to shower. I haven’t changed my clothes in a couple of days. But it was a really great outfit. Let me pull this baseball cap down a little lower. Yeah. Just perfect. I could add some big dangly earrings. No one will notice the rest of me when their eyes are on my fabulous earrings. I’m – really not beautiful. Sigh. Yeah, I’m really not. I’m not sure what happened. I started the week so well.

Friends, this has described my spiritual life more often than not. I’ve started the week steeped in God’s Word. I’ve been in His presence. I’ve been sure of it. But the further I got from that time spent in His word, the uglier I became. Some days would find me too busy to find time with the Lord. Or I would convince myself that the one day I spent would last me for a while. Then I’d have to distract those around me from noticing how not-beautiful I was.

Y’all I’m done. I’m done with a life of ugly. I want to be beautiful and I want it every day. With Christ, I can. He makes me beautiful. I’m tired. I’m tired of being ugly. I’m tired of being pretty. I want to be beautiful. I will not be lukewarm. I will be on fire. I will shine His light so brightly others will be drawn to Him in me. I will wake up daily and apply Jesus like make-up. He will cover me. When He speaks I will listen. When He calls I will answer. Where He goes I will follow. Oh, who - who will go with me?