I too have been “bit” by that “bug” (adultury)
and i too know of the grace and freedom found though Jesus Christ!

GOD BLESS YOU sister.

shalom.

This is something that all women struggle with, and I am proud that Faith Lifts was able to spotlight your journey- I know it has ministered to many!

Be Blessed,
Heather

I could have written some of this post myself and known I was absolutely being honest. I grew up in a family/extended family where marital faithfulness was not even the norm. I saw adultery all around me. And I mean a lot of it. I’d call it borderline animal instincts.

What’s interesting to me is this. My parents are divorced. All six of their children have at least one and some have two or three divorces under our belts. All six of us. Divorced at some point in our lives. That’s so sad, isn’t it?

I am probably blessed that I can truly say I’ve never been tempted by another man since I married Rob twenty eight years ago. I cannot say that about my first marriage.

So you’re bringing something to light here that all of us need to look at closely. Your honesty and transparency brightened my day. It really did.

Thank you for the courage it took to say this to us. This is a wonderful contribution to Faith Lifts. Good job, Girl!

Now I may I live in a Norman Rockwell painting. No divorces in my family.

I recently sat in our attorney’s office, shaking my head for NO WAY,just like I found myself doing to the questions from Shannon Ethridge. Our lawyer was proposing all these different scenarios of “what if”
like your son had a baby with a hooker or his brother had a special needs child with a harlot… if my husband ran off with the neighbor and she got pregnant.
He said I needed to establish a line of succession for all these imaginary grandbabies and half babes. I guess he has seen more than I have been willing to see.
In our Sunday school class we were talking about one of the apocryphal books where it is written “Go your way, and see beauty and greatness… as much as your eyes are able to see” 2 Esdras 10:55
In this Apocryphal book they are talking about the beauty of great temples in Jerusalem, but these words come to me now too…
As much as your eyes are able to see
How much are my eyes able to see of The Lord?
Ya know I went to see my sons research lab this week and he had us look in his microscope. My Mom glanced for a moment, then shrugged saying she couldn’t close one eye so she moved away. Seeing nothing. My nephew looked in for 2 or 3 seconds and said “How amazing” and moved away he was there very long so seeing more than my mom but not much more.
It is only as I look and look and look could I even see. And the more he told us about this creature, the more I come to know of the object I am looking at, then the more I see in it.
Paul speaks of ” …the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things” Phillippians 3:8
He was willing to lose all things and to keep looking and looking and looking into The Lord so that he might know Him better.
How much am I willing to lose, that I may know, and so be able to see?

Is it in the “I” in me that blinds my eyes?

The loss of I …that I may know Him, see Him with new clearness in all creation… even in souls that maybe what I see as unlovable and unbeautiful.

May the Lord grant this to us all.
I want more and more to see His goodness and His beauty. Not vaguely, nor just from time to time. I want to see Him truly, continually, in His work, in those who love Him, in His Book, in Himself, like Karla has illustrated with her post.

My Father, this moment, I push aside all sense of need…. every request…. each complaint… even words of praise and worship….
just to stand silent…. to turn the eyes of my soul to you
to look deep into your wonders…